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When I first started working any sort of program I was told to “let it go”, “let go let God”, “relax”….. all the things It took a long time to let go of the weights that had been holding me down my whole life. Alcoholism is a disease that will tear you apart limb from limb with no hopes of ever being put back together again. Sobriety is the glue that puts me back together. When I first started looking how this all “worked” I did not want to trust in a higher power, or God or the universe, I...

Webster’ s definition of sobriety is  1 a: not intoxicated b: abstaining from drinking alcohol or taking intoxicating drugs: refraining from the use of addictive substances    This is a fun topic. Mainly because it becomes controversial, as do most things these days, however it does not need to be. Break it down to its simplicity, not intoxicated. Then all you have to do is answer the question, am i intoxicated? No? Cool, you are sober, for now. To live a sober life, is a different definition. Never intoxicated, refraining from the use of addictive substances. This is always where...

One of the biggest realizations as I got sober was that I had not felt real feelings for quite some time. All I did was drink and use drugs to get away from all the feelings of life. Happy, sad, anxiety, excited, angry…. All of them So take away the outside substance and I am left with the one thing that terrifies me the most in this world, myself. Have you ever been alone with yourself? Your own thoughts? In silence? For some people that can be the happiest place on earth, for me in early sobriety, it was hell....

Sometimes it is difficult to look at the past and be comfortable with the life that I was living. The lying, the cheating, the stealing, all the “ings”. It was so easy to blame alcohol, to say because I was drunk I acted this way. But when I am able to look deeper, that’s not the truth. The truth is, I acted those ways because I had the burning desire to feel something different then the way I was feeling. Even in my worst state of drunkenness, I knew the difference between right and wrong, I just chose wrong. Deep...